***28th August 2008***

Tired, is a long lost friend.
Expression and anything significantly evocative or eloquent from this mind has become devoid of my organic zealousness. The Ventilation Hypothesis is facile yet undesirable.
Revelation, I hope, will come from a multifarious re-channeling of the fire that surrounds this stone.

I am recharging, so my subvention may be laudable and befitting of the grandeur that surrounds me.


***14th July 2008***

[everythingstartsinthesandbox]

ITEM #448 - DR3AM1NG

   28th June, 2008
The day begins with a unusual purple flower appearing in a weed-ridden bed at my previous home, ex-home i'll say... The symbolism for me in this moment is intense. This ex-home was a place that brought me back with my soulmate, who i first fell for in a field of purple flowers. It has been a fantastic year so far... I send a pic of the flower to her. Everything is warm and familiar...

"Delivery received! My house is currently filled with Sight and Sand...
Vectors and complex algorithms appear and take on a new form, as fantasy sneaks in behind... and i'm off... Off to this new reality...

This is going to take some time...

See you on the flipside +)"

C:\>start sandbox.exe
Loading...

*sensory overload*

   29th June, 2008
Last night was so cold... Hydrogen had bonded all around me, i'm not sure if i slept at all, but i must have because i remember waking several times in an unfamiliar place. Then memories started flowing in... "belly distended, talons extended, vicious intent, energy spent, acid wash denim, digital venom..." The griever came...

  2nd July, 2008
There is a point around a circle, where the other side begins... It's hard to define where this is but it exists. Between these two points is where it gets really interesting. I've found myself at this point. It's hard to define which way around the circle i'm traveling... My elders advice is the Ritual... It leaves me sour, as always.

  5th July, 2008
Another smaller circle appears. However, it only confirms the worst. A few moments in reality, and then i'm out. How did I end up here? Peers seem to have no answers. And something goes missing... I search everywhere.

  7th July, 2008
I'm given a rare second chance at repairing... I've found the beginning of the circle.. Direction is obvious and beautiful.

It's cellphone city week... The SMS sex is great, but the telephone games begin... I tell her isn't it a pity, that you can't sell me.

  11th July, 2008
I found a secret door. I've never been here before. However, as I look around, the sense of dejavu begins to slowly pulsate from the corners of the room. The senses increase until I am taken. I spend the day with significant people, deeply engrossed in their reality... My life appears to unexist for a little while.

  12th July, 2008
I'm still searching... This is not right. Some friends take me out. "I open my eyes to confusion, a sensory attack, numbing my mind to malfunction, the neurons retreat to the black, the body is strange, unfamiliar, but my nakedness seems to be right, strangers appear out of nowhere, coming and going all night... I wander about in this nightmare, and all i can do is just stare, i'm bumped and pushed as i walk through the crowds, but don't seem to get anywhere, my naivety worn like a billboard, from the moment i had arrived, rebirth from a cold plastic mother, i haven't yet learned to survive..."

  13th July, 2008
I awake from a dream about her. A different me with a perfect her. A reality I once lived in. So many memories. Am i dreaming now? Everything is different... I wait until the last minute, then enter cellphone city one last time. Nothing... For a while. Then, like an SMS angel, a light appears... Someone totally unexpected. Hope flows throughout the room. An exchange took place. Enlightenment.

  14th July, 2008
I'm still searching, but reality is back. 'Am I still dreaming?', I still wonder. Then it occurs. Reality was here the whole time... It doesn't matter if it was all a dream.

I experienced it.

"However, there is nothing that we can observe and name, and then say that it will exist forever."